Sometimes I'm quiet. Well...often I'm quiet. I don't need to talk all the time. I don't want to talk all the time. I think I have less words to say to fill my daily quota than most females. I often get asked if something is wrong when I'm not talking much. No. I'm just enjoying the softness of quietness.
Lately I've been more quiet. I've been mulling over many things deep within my soul. I've been putting down my phone, going off the computer, not watching as many movies, been off of Facebook for a time. I've been reading more in my downtime, journaling, thinking, singing, praying, and observing...the quieter things that I don't do when I'm filling my life up with static and noise. They all have their place mind you...but sometimes I just need to unplug. It's my way of stopping to smell the proverbial roses and quiet my soul. It's a very soothing exercise...and I can actually hear God's voice better and with less confusion.
Shaun is noise personified. Portia is noise personified. My mom is close to noise personified :). They don't need quietness and solitude like I do. It fascinates me. I love how we are all so different and how different things fill our souls. Sometimes M and I will be home by ourselves or in the car just the two of us and we'll revel in the quietness. We'll just look at each other and smile. No need for words. Not to say we don't enjoy our noisy ones. It's just that we don't need to fill in the space with more...they do an excellent job and we are content to let them. And it's also not to say that we can't be quite noisy and exuberant ourselves...just not all the time.
So if you come upon me and I'm quiet...I'm not mad at you...I'm likely very comfortable with you. I'm not depressed...I'm enjoying myself. I'm not upset...I'm content. I'm just being myself. :)
Lately I've been more quiet. I've been mulling over many things deep within my soul. I've been putting down my phone, going off the computer, not watching as many movies, been off of Facebook for a time. I've been reading more in my downtime, journaling, thinking, singing, praying, and observing...the quieter things that I don't do when I'm filling my life up with static and noise. They all have their place mind you...but sometimes I just need to unplug. It's my way of stopping to smell the proverbial roses and quiet my soul. It's a very soothing exercise...and I can actually hear God's voice better and with less confusion.
Shaun is noise personified. Portia is noise personified. My mom is close to noise personified :). They don't need quietness and solitude like I do. It fascinates me. I love how we are all so different and how different things fill our souls. Sometimes M and I will be home by ourselves or in the car just the two of us and we'll revel in the quietness. We'll just look at each other and smile. No need for words. Not to say we don't enjoy our noisy ones. It's just that we don't need to fill in the space with more...they do an excellent job and we are content to let them. And it's also not to say that we can't be quite noisy and exuberant ourselves...just not all the time.
So if you come upon me and I'm quiet...I'm not mad at you...I'm likely very comfortable with you. I'm not depressed...I'm enjoying myself. I'm not upset...I'm content. I'm just being myself. :)
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Awesome! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxMom
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